Here I sit in my new home surrounded by what at one time were prized possessions to me. I currently see it as all crap at the moment! When you move it's funny how all the things you have doesn't seem like much until you have nothing set up and it sits in a box on the floor.
Let me start off by stating I'm on the verge of a serious mental breakdown. I have been unable to attend my counseling because I have been wrapped up in the moving process and now i will not be able to attend my next appointment because I have no vehicle and no babysitter.
What happen to my vehicle you ask? Well here let me show you a picture to explain....
You see we now have a huge open field next to our house. Open area means nasty blowing winds a drifts. Well because of this snow managed to fly up into my engine and coated it. This move has taken all of our money. So now I have no vehicle to even go out and look for a job like I had intended on doing. My goal of going an possibly getting my STNA has now once again come to a dead stop and it is now just a dream.
The clutter in my house also is not helping. To make matters worse we are currently in a flood warning and school has been cancelled because of the rising water in which water is already in our basement. (In a way a little piece, just a little piece is thinking yes flood lower this junk of mine)
Either way I am not happy. I have nobody to help us pay to repair my van so my car is going to have to sit where it is in the picture until some how some way it can get fixed. I can use Eric's car but only until he has to go to work. Then I'm just SOL (S*^# out of luck). I'm going to see if I can do some suggestions by myself but short of putting gas in a car and changing a radiator I'm clueless when it comes to vehicles.
All I can ask is that all those who read my blog please pray that my vehicle starts up and runs again so I can go out to find me a job. Finding a job will take a lot of stress of Eric's shoulders and we will not fight as much anymore like we have been. This also is why I'm near breakdown.
Oh God please help me!!!